Re: Cam Interview

[Cedahlia]

"You know, I don't really know yet," Cameron said. "I'm going into this sort of just assuming that the long term is an option but we haven't been together long enough to really figure out if that's a good idea or not, I suppose," he answered. "And it's not really a talk we've had yet. But it's early. I'm not too concerned about it yet."

[Cedahlia]

"Fair. Do you have dreams? I know you have nightmares, you must have the good kind too, right?" Nicki asked, curious. Everyone had them, except for Gunnar. Who just wanted to survive and not hurt people. Cam was different though.

[Cedahlia]

"If you mean while sleeping, I might but I can't ever remember them," Cameron said with a shrug. "Oh but if you mean like as in things I want from life? I'm not sure. Long term goal is to use my training for something good and worthwhile and I always thought that would be leading my father's sect. Short term goal is just keeping my sister safe from my father."

[Cedahlia]

"I think you're using your training for something good by keeping Hikari and your sister safe, so that's two birds and one stone. Go you." Nicki said with a grin. "Do you have favourite elements other than water and steel?"

[Cedahlia]

"I like dragons," Cameron said. "But that kind of runs in my family so it's sort of expected of me, I suppose. I also like psychic. I can respect the mental focus and training it takes for them to do what they do. Ade helped me to appreciate that."

[Cedahlia]

"Do you like being in your fiend form more than being in your human form?" Nicki asked, because that was an interesting idea. She was sure as part fiend, one was more comfortable than the other. Tan personally preferred being a human, but he had grown up like that due to his dad.

[Cedahlia]

"Honestly, I prefer my fiend form," Cameron said. "I find it to be a little less vulnerable feeling and more natural for me. But I'm also a fan of the water and if things in the seas were better than they are now I'd likely spend most of my time there. There are perks to having a human form though. It's certainly easier to travel in and I can blend quite well without people knowing I have fiend blood. Hands are also really useful."

[Cedahlia]

"Is that going to end up being an issue for you when it comes to Hikari? You'd be less a fiend then." Nicki said.

[Cedahlia]

"Not really," Cameron said. "It's not like she's a ball and chain, you know? I can leave to do my own thing in the water when I feel like it. Well not now. When it's safe. Besides, I've been spending most of the last few years in human form because of the sect."

[Cedahlia]

"Ohhh. Makes sense. Do you ever remember your parents being together?" nicki asked curiously.

[Cedahlia]

"Oh sure," Cameron said. "Those are some of my favorite memories to revisit. Not that I believe they can ever happen again. My parents really loved each other but love can make you do some really fucked up things and justify stuff that shouldn't ever be considered. I guess their love is just not healthy."

[Cedahlia]

"That's because love can't be all good, because that's not real. People do stupid things for the love, even the quest for it." Nicki said with a little nod. "Which parent are you most close too? I'd assume Palkia, but I've been wrong before."

[Cedahlia]

"I think I'm closer to my mom because she's the only one that I can still relate to," Cameron said. "Especially after what happened. I spend more time with my dad than I do her though as she's quite busy and he's easier to find and be around. Well, I guess not so much lately. But you know what I mean."

[Cedahlia]

"What about Ade? Are you close with him?" Nicki asked, knowing that it was a bit of a tense subject considering what Max had put the poor fiend through and driven him crazy. Like, literally crazy.

[Cedahlia]

"Yeah," Cameron said but you could see in his eyes that he wasn't as comfortable talking about it. "Ade is pretty special to me. What Dad turned him into, it's not who he is. I don't know how to fix him but I know I can't let Dad have him. I'll make him right again."

[Cedahlia]

"It's really sweet you want to do that and I know that you will do that. You can do anything you set your mind too." Nicki said with a grin, he was too bloody cute. "You weren't always like this, though. Tell me what you were like in the days after Krei brought you back?"

[Cedahlia]

"I was a mess," Cameron admitted. "Before everything happened I wasn't much of a fighter. I could fight but I didn't really try to train as much in that area. I made things. I was going to be a smith. I wanted to create beautiful art and weapons out of metal and the like. But when Krei brought me back...I was alive but I wasn't me anymore. The world just didn't look the same to me. It didn't feel the same. And the stuff I used to enjoy just seemed so pointless. I felt pretty lost for a while."

[Cedahlia]

"So, you became someone new? Or did you find yourself again? It's always hard to come back from abuse, more so when you actually die." nicki nodded in an understanding way.

[Cedahlia]

"I became someone new," Cameron said. "The person I was before, they died, and they're not coming back from that even if my body did. I can look back on who I was but I don't think I can ever get back there again. Into that mindset. And that's okay."

[Cedahlia]

"But, you're a different person again to who you was when the darkens as consumed you?"

[Cedahlia]

"Yes," Cameron said. "I've managed to find balance and focus in my life as well as a purpose that's an lot healthier. But Clara had a lot to do with that. She believed in me when I didn't believe in or even like myself anymore."

[Cedahlia]

"Well you can't blame yourself for that, it's hard to see the light when you're being sucked into the darkness." Nicki said, because that was one of the hardest things to do. "As much as you say it was your sister, you have to realise it was you too. A massive achievement for anyone."

[Cedahlia]

"I know but I wouldn't have been able to do it on my own," Cameron said. "I didn't like who I was and what I was becoming. I was self destruction pretty hard. I know that Krei was trying to do something good when he brought me back but I think that all I did was disappoint him."

[Cedahlia]

"I think he'll be okay, you're trying to be better. Is that going to be weird for you? That Krei is such a big part of Hikari's life?"

[Cedahlia]

"It won't be easy for me," Cam answered. "It's hard to be around someone that regrets that you are alive."

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